It’s been a long hot, very hot, summer. The garden was planted and harvested. Grandchildren came, stayed a few days, and went back home. Termite damage was discovered and repaired. The cleaning of the shop was taken in manageable bites, inventory counted, packed up and sold. Major family dynamic was changed with the engagement and 6 weeks of preparing for a wedding. Wedding dress designed and made and packing up and moving said daughter to new home. Teaching a quilting class stretched me new ways, and starting an Etsy shop has proved to be challenging.
Most days I’m just not sure what direction I should go in….I’ve not seen a clear path in any particular way, so I just keep putting my feet one in front of the other. It is a life of learning to trust more, leaning harder, and having just enough faith to carry me through to the next thing. It is comforting to know that He will not let me go through doors He has closed so as I move I can be sure He is directing my steps even though I can’t see a change in the path or landscape. I think this might be the place where many christians stumble and fall. When things don’t seem to change, we get the idea that God has abandoned us and that’s just not true. I have to remind myself often that my ways or timing are not His.
One thing I am re-learning is that there is much more to me than the “business”. It’s so easy when you’re self-employed and wearing all the hats, that you kind of loose your identity. And along with that , it gets real easy to try and do things in your own strength, and try to take the credit for any success. This of course is wrong and ultimately self defeating. Any success we enjoy is only because of God’s grace and favor over us.
So this transition period I’m in is not the easiest place I’ve ever been but I’m learning slowly to be more patient as He completes His work in me. My husband always has told me to go straight if I’m not sure which road to take….and that advice has consistently kept me from getting lost. So I’ll keep trusting Him and keep moving until I find a sign that tells me turn or find a new door to pass through.
